thinKAway

They say that your thoughts control your emotions. Maybe that’s the reason why our brains are located above our hearts. But I guess this also says that the heart is so powerful that it has to be situated under the brain to bring balance. The point is you can’t live without them both.

Emotions

"If you hold back on emotions - if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them - you can never get to being detached. You're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You' re afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails." - Morrie ( Tuesdays With Morrie)

Assume or Deny?

What is more difficult, to assume or to deny? If you assume things, you end up standing on a steep hanging bridge where a slight move is a crucial thing to do. You can say neither a yes nor a no. Like phrases which can’t be progressed to final sentences. Something is always saying that what you feel is right and wrong at the same time. Denying is another thing. It’s like preventing a river to flow. Depriving yourself from what is intended for you but you choose to evade it maybe because of fear.  But one thing is common, they are both painful.

Not Intended

It is difficult when someone got you in between. Have you been on that situation? You feel so vulnerable and so exposed that you tend to shield yourself from feeling anything-from falling.

Sometimes we find ourselves caught up between our emotions which escalate us to a different level of fear or maybe a more intense atmosphere. Then everything becomes so sudden. You are moved from one state to another without your consent. As if you are caught inside a paper cup seeing nothing but a white wall promising no way out.  But sometimes the most difficult question is whether you would really want to go back and find yourself on the same track or would you be willing to risk and see the spectacular view from the other side. 

Nice to meet you guys! :)

I know some of you had experienced meeting people and just by mere look or glance you felt that sense of certainty that you will be getting along with them.  It has always been a refreshing feeling and what is more refreshing is when you have proven that things truly are getting just fine. I never intend to practice my mind-reading-capacity-skill but there are circumstances where I encounter people and really felt at ease with them instantly. Maybe I'm just lucky enough to meet new good friends. :) 

Believing

" Man often becomes what he believes himself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I shall have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it, even if I may not have it at the beginning."
- Mahatma Gandhi

Snowflakes

"Under the microscope, I found that snowflakes were miracles of beauty; and it seemed a shame that this beauty should not be seen and appreciated by others. Every crystal was a masterpiece of design and no one design was ever repeated. When a snowflake melted, that design was forever lost. Just that much beauty was gone, without leaving any record behind." - Wilson Bentley

Playlist

Minsan nagtataka ako kung bakit ang dami kong nilalagay na kanta sa ipod ko pero hindi lahat ng ito'y pinapakinggan ko. Sa dami-daming pagpipilian na kanta ay pilit ko pa din hinahanap yung iisang kanta na nais kong pakinggan. Minsan tuloy naisip ko, ang buhay ang parang playlist sa ipod (sabog este ang daming pagpipilian), madami kang gusto at madami kang pwede puntahan pero sa huli isa lang naman ang kailangan mo. Minsan ilan lamang sa kanila ang talagang mahalagang kanta para sayo. Bow.

Same as Before

Lines in my palm has been there since I first gained my consciousness. The sky has been blue even the sun shines. The desert has been changing its course as the wind flips another page on earth's face. Water is running in my heart and washing my soul. The breeze flew in my world without making its existence known. I've been walking and searching for the sign. The sign that can lead me outside the world. The chance to meet you on the road and see whether I can unlock this chain. Will it take me longer? Or am I just like the other that is changing now and then yet circling on the same sphere.

Happy Meal

I just experienced one of my happiest meal here in the office. My lunch a while ago was not fancy at all but I felt really satisfied. I really don't know why. Have you experienced that yourself? That behind the ordinary face of things you still could find it special, soothing. It was a terrific feeling.

thinKAway

When was the last time I let my heart decides? It sounds scary. No, it is scary! I need to sleep this over.goodnight!

Enough?

I feel restless today. I'm looking for something but I really don't know what I'm looking for. Much energy rest in my veins and I just want to exhaust every single piece of myself. I have so much things in my mind and for once I just want to actuate every single plan I have. Really, I don't know what I'm saying, just mere words. Or maybe, this a part of me that just want to escape, walk away. I'm looking for more or maybe less.

Drift Away

I really wished I could just drift away and go to different places.  The kind of day where you will wake up in the morning and all you have to think is where to start your "escapade". I want to ride the train without worrying the traffic that welcomes me once i get out. I want to try the other lane where it wouldn't lead me to my office (I love my job). I want to have my bag, a map, and my sneakers and start moving forward. I don't care where it would lead me. I just want to drift away. To experience not just mere routine instead to feel the gift of spontaneity. Yeah, I  guess I should do that.

New Stage

It's been a while.Anyway, i decided to do this again. I missed letting my thoughts escape my brain. Sometimes, it's a way of cleaning yourself, draining yourself from the toxic of the day.This is the moment in my life where I realized that being adult is scary, messy, confusing, fun, free. You drive your own car. It's up to you whether to stop or to move on. Sounds simple? No, it's a scary puzzle. Uncertain of the next road. But that's just the way it is. You just have to close your eyes and open your heart. The world is messy but don't let it ruin your peace.

thinKAway

You're facing right and now I'm heading to left. My pace create lines behind me while you walk swiftly . You paint the star at night and I watch the moon fades in the morning. This is a fact that is understood by the soul and which words fail to express. You came without any warning. Breaking these wall I built then I'm left behind, picking pieces of me.So next time, will you be gentle enough.

thinKAway

I feel happy today. I think we should all maintain that kind of attitude even if the rest of the world says otherwise. Afterall, tomorrow is another day. This too shall pass. Enjoy every minute, treasure every moment.

Somewhere

I stand still
Letting time pass me by
Listening not on the world
But sensing your pulse
Matching with mine

I feel you
Waiting for me too
Carving my face in your mind
With your eyes closed
And with your heart opened

I took this pace
Hoping to reach you
Or that you find me
I can't wait to see you
To hold you tight

Sometimes I think...

Maybe we saw each other
Maybe we felt each other's existence
But time wasn't ready to give us our chance
Until then, I'll wait for you.

I got the job

Ang bilis ng pangyayari last jan 20. Hindi ko inaasahan ang mga bagay-bagay. Well, this is it! New challenges, new lessons! For now, i'll just enjoy the ride.

Finding Nemo! =)

Have you experienced when circumstances seemed to dictate to you which raod to take? Have you felt that somehow society demands something from you which you were not willing to give? Somehow, sometimes you have given in to then it just hits you. It just hits you and finally you've realized that there were things you've been pursuing but were not the ones that you really like. Things you've been doing because it was the good thing to do, expected of you.
There were people who knew from the very start what they really want in life but for some it was a different story . Well, i belong on the latter part. I've realized that when you get old you tend to have deeper thoughts. Your perspective changes, your needs change and your priority becomes clearer. Right this very moment I got some serious thoughts.  I've realized that for quite sometime i've been playing my best shot, trying to play the game but the problem was that this was not the playing field for me. I know i can be better but not on this field. I want to try other things and find myself..I'l go find my nemo, i mean my dream! =) hehehe.

new year, new start

Days from now we will all be flipping another page. A new chapter of our life will be revealed. Another plot, possibly new characters will be arising. A new twist is waiting in the corner.

The year 2009 was a great year for me. It was as if i was riding a roller coaster. There were times that im on top of the world and there were days as if i was beneath the world. Pushing all its mass towards me. But at the end i was able to pull myself back. There were failures, pains, frustrations, victories, and joy. I think this year had showed me the different aspects of life. I've learned to accept and let go of the things that wasn't meant for me. I have learned to love even if it was tiring and painful.I've learned to make decisions, tough decisions. Simply, i have started to see life in a different perspective. For the past months i've realized that plans shouldn't control you. You should be ready to adjust all the time. Sometimes, you have to change your route and see better roads to take. It could be confusing and painful of course because sometimes we think that what we want is really what we like in life. But as we go on we realize that what we have right now is better than what we planned to have before. Life may have its uncertainties but one must not give up. We all should move on because I'm sure that the road is still long...new year, new start ahead. =)